If you think my this blog post is supposed to be about how I celebrate CNY,you are damn wrong.
Well days before CNY,my family had already prepared for it,from buying new clothes to preparing snacks to preparing decorations to preparing angpow $ and whose house to visit.
However something unexpected happened.
My 4th aunt from my dad side had a bad fall and she was admitted to the hospital three days before CNY and on the first day when I am preparing to do visiting in my new clothes,I learnt that she was going to die anytime soon and I only went to my aunt house at the afternoon.This visit is supposed to be cancelled.At that point of time since I was having my period,my mood naturally became bad and flared up as unlike my friends who can collect angpows and go visiting in their new clothes posting their OOTD,I can't do so.(All those OOTDs I posted on instagram are actually not for visitation,plus you know women tend to get frustrated at every single thing at their period)
Well I was expecting her to get better at at least the first or second day and get released so that our plan will proceed as per normal but by the second day,she didn't.So instead of visiting at Boon Lay,Yew Tee and Old Changi Airport like how we used to,we went for River Hongbao.Knowing that I am still frustrated at unable to receive angpows from my relatives at my dad side due to the fact that my period is still going on,my mum gave me $100 angpow as a compensation.After receiving the $100 I no longer feel cranky as at least I get to have a small celebration with my family at river hongbao.
Today I was saikang-ing for Roslie's shoot and as we were down there chatting happily,from planning our future cosplans,to spazzing how cute the Love Live girls are,to spazzing how handsome Kira,Athrun and Shinn were(also how lovey they were to their girls) and what type of shots we want for our future cosplans to satisfy our kokoros,I received the news that my 4th aunt had passed away.It was until I was alone then I started to think alot.When I heard that she had a fall,I asked my brothers and sisters in Christ to pray for her and also me myself had prayed for her.However after knowing that she had passed away,I felt thankful towards those who had prayed for her as God doesn't want her to go through any pain and sufferings in this world thus He bring her to a better place.I thought of all the moments I had spent with her and started to miss her,but I know there is no use crying for her as crying won't bring her back,plus the fact that she is at a beautiful place.As I think this is an unexpected incident,I learnt that life is full of unexpectation.You will never know if the person around you will be gone forever.So instead of crying for those who had passed on,the only thing we can do is to cherish the person around us who are still alive.
Frankly speaking,I am very afraid to go to her funeral tomorrow as I don't really like to attend funerals,especially relatives one,because seeing their picture plus their body in the casket will make me feel very sad plus the atmosphere is never a happy one.However I had to attend it as I need to show my respects to her after all.
Life is really fragile.You will never know what will happen at the next minute.
